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step by step,

day by day...is how we are taking this journey.

Yesterday's feast left Carmen feeling not so great, and gave her some trouble sleeping. This morning she did feel better, despite the lack of sleep. We had a relaxing morning lounging around the house. Jose and Tom where working from home, and Daniel had work later today, so we all got to hang out. Carmen, Tom and I then went to WholeFoods to stock up the kitchen, which was seriously lacking in supplies. Carmen was her usual self searching the entire produce section for the perfect fruits/veggies, and running around the store. Once she got tired she sat in this cool sitting area/cafe at WholeFoods. We got home and started making lunch as Carmen directed us from the sofa in the living room. We made a great mixed greens salad with radishes, onions, black olives, artichokes, tomatoes in a Carmen-made lemon-mustard vinaigrette. I made a quinoa salad with roasted veggies (red peppers, asparagus, mushrooms, onions) and grape tomatoes. We enjoyed this delicious  family lunch together. Carmen then went to rest some more in bed before hanging out with her friend Kity who stopped by to see her. We had a late dinner (even for Spanish standards) that consisted of zucchini angel hair pancake and a butternut squash with sweet potato soup. After dinner we sat and watched an episode of the newest season of Curb your Enthusiasm, because who doesn't think Larry David is hilarious in his own crazy way.


Carmen also got some beautiful flowers from some very wonderful people. A lovely sunflower to bring her sunshine from Apa, Emily and Anna and an elegant orchid to bring us love and strength from Tom's family. She loves them very much and thanks you all for your thoughts and positive energy.


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